And then my sister in law, in some random act of unknown kindness, sent a one line email saying, “We’re putting the photos on a thumb drive, “ and, just like that, I’m off the hook. She didn’t know I dropped the ball, and yet she picked it up and let me off the hook.
And now that I don’t need to open the emails attachments and look at the photos, now I can. And BAM, first photo, it’s one of my parents circa 1980s and it hits me like a sucker punch to the gut and I’m floored . It’s too much and I can’t handle it. IT IS TOO MUCH. My mom has been dead since 1998. My dad just died. And I. Cannot. Handle. It.
Flash forward half an hour and I am watching crap TV with my 12 year old, texting with my sister re: the loss of brain cells and also, PS, I need to pack, because it’s almost time to go spread my dad’s ashes.
It. Is. All. Too. Much
Seriously. Fuck this.
6 comments:
My heart goes out to you. It is simply not to be handled.
Oh friend, I'm so sorry you have to do this...just keep drinking. xoxo
I'm so sorry, Shana. I knew you had been at the hospital with your father, but I didn't realize, well, I didn't realize. Love you sweet friend. (Crap TV can steady you when it's all too much.)
The drink makes it all okay...until tomorrow. But fuck tomorrow. Drink today...also I love you!!!!
this is a shame. I'm so sorry for you, but you need to live the life without worries and complains, just keep drinking....
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